slump~

i took this photo while i was on vacation in july.... its the stairway of a lighthouse..... frmo the top obviously... and since im ridiculously afraid of heights, i looked like fool just reaching over the railings to take this photo....

anyways.... i thought this photo is appropriate for today coz these days i feel like im in a bit of a slump.... i dont know why... well... everyone has ups and downs.... i dont know why they come and go...

its like being "in the zone" in sports.... dont know how u get "in" and why u ever come "out"....

well.... i sometimes get the feeling korea is just dragging on.... like the feeling that ur just being dragged along.... theres really not much to do here, not much to be excited about.... and if anything is really exciting me these days, its the NRL finals back at home....

maybe i wont feel so down if the bulldogs win the premiership this year.... but if they lose... especially to the eels, i know i'll really feel like $#!T then.....

i think im in a bit of a dilemma too.... all my time in china, i felt really satisfied purely doing everything i want to do.... i was doing what i want to do, and socially, china was more exciting than korea too....

now in korea... yeah... i love teaching, and i love my job... but its the other 18 hours of the day that drags on and pulls me down.... the dilemma is.... korea is definitely not my type of "fun"... but im also thinking these days that in korea, if i look hard enough, i could make some serious money here....

so... do i want to grind the days out and try to make some $$$, or just get a reasonable pay and do the things i want to do..... u know people always say, "u cant always do everything that u want".... i've always thought to differ.... but maybe u cant....

meh~